take me home pls (november 22, 2007)

take me home please… i woke up late this morning and i could stil remember how i walked thru the door and looked for my towel… i was panting then. .dunno wat to wear and wat do first.. god its already 7:56 and the sun is inevitably rising.. i have a review at 8 am so i have to do the stuffs the quickest way i can. i arrived at skul after 30 minutes of preparation and travel.. i was late then… luckily, my teacher was upstairs and forgot something . My classmates were taking an exam already, without any hesitation, i took one of the test questionaires from the desk and answered it directly. i was in a rush, my epinephrine rushed throughout my system. Its telling me to think quickly and to write the fastest. at that moment, i really wanted to go home and sleep again but i was motivated. Of whom? of someone i trust and care.. i dreamt of that person last night. and woke up crying without knowing the reason why…I decided to stay, and to let everyone know, i dont have any choice..haha i need to learn and put the neccessary data to my brain…am trying to be enthusistic and pulling some energy from my passionate clasmates. the day took so long..but i had a fine lunch with my friends. i went home early.. and so here i am writing this stuff for fulfillment of the day…thnx for reading.. god bless. this is me.. im frank, 19 from iloilo. i rarely write things like this, and i dont even know wat to write at first.. i wanted to practice how to make good stories and so i guess this thing was a big crap.. haha… k guys.. enjoy ur life with my nonsense stories around.. haha.. God Bless YOU!!

my old solitude; do anythin better than this.. crap again

WARNING: run-on sentences ahead, just stop and read.. its not gonna crash your headlight.

do anythin better than this.. crap again
so tired like him.. i guess its really good to play safe… i thought people will be true … i considered each of them genuine from the start but then they are starting to break me down.. i wanted to be fair but tears always haunt me … there’s no place i can hide and no one can really understand me… people knows me well … yes… well enough to pull me down and break me… i always wanted to smile, to just forget about the things i shouldnt worry about… yes its definetly right.. i know sometimes im that emotional but i dont know what it is.. maybe im damn not to see things clearly… its more than enuf to let me feel that i’m becoming stronger and true to my self… hope im right.
i feel so down as of the moment and i know that someday this is gonna be just a memory away.. faded…far enuf not to hurt me again.. but it will scar and can never be untold. and if somebody wasted his time reading this, hope he can understand me.. this crap is a dead thing..
this is just what i wanted to say at this moment …i already realized that i’m breaking my boundaries from the start.. nothing’s left to keep.. everything can return against me anytime they want to use it…
i have a big hatred towards my self …
if only..
i can do anythin better than this..
better than what im doing right now… dont be jugemental.. i wish you fortune and happiness in life…
i am ..
shifted..complicated… useless… ignored.. encapsulated by selfishness…
this is not me i know…mr. star