SHE SLEEPS WITH HER FRIEND’S XMAS TEDDY

Should have been posted: December 2010

Eleven fifty-nine, a minute more and it will be midnight. I was still on the dining area and was looking for something to eat on the kitchen. I came across the open room of our new family member “Petpet”. Her real name’s Gerlyn and she’s a distant relative in our province. She’s living with us now for about 4 years. She can be called a helper but heartedly accepted as a family member. My parents treat no one like that, my father even call Petpet as “anak”. It reflects his personality, full of humility and big open arms for the needy.

She was asleep with a teddy bear on her slightly curled arms while her back is half flatted on the bed mattress, with closed eyes and while silently breathing, she reflects a tired one after a long day. The ‘teddy” is a gift from her college buddy, a Christmas gift that somehow made her heart a little bit more warmer. It reminded me of the sacrifices that the girl on bed had exchanged for her future. Comforting herself with a gift... somehow, I understand that it represents the people she has been longing to be with, her family. Not to her attention, but it really makes sense to think it that way. She had chosen to be with us and helped my mom doing the household chores. What about her “nanay”? Isn’t she also needs assistance at home? I am thankful that she came in and helped us with things, lots of things...big things!

How about this? How will you feel if you’re e away from your loved ones and spending time with people you need to deal, understand, get to know and share the same roof with? It is and might be so difficult for her to handle the problems.

My father is so good that he decided to send Petpet to school. Pet went to college and became an HRS graduate. Until now, she’s with us and waiting for the right time to grab an opportunity to work abroad. She is determined to help her family someday. I just hope that her dreams do come true and I promise to myself that I won’t say no for a genuine person like her for a help.

~fin~

9-11 blue light n a baller NIGHT

we got the names... freter, frank, francis and thomas... singin' songs from the car 5 meters away with the songs downloaded from bombassbeatz, we got a moment to enjoy taking photographs with the ballers under blue light in a day-crying and night-sleeping tree.

September Party Party!

Mr. and Ms CPU night PLUS the fun waiting chocs @ samurai. we've waited for the party party to start....It ended with a big bash! hahaha

the morning after... bea was complaining bout her smelly-smoky hair ...hahaha.. while everyone's busy with usher and the team , we were busy lighting stick after stick of our duo with the rhum-cola. the girl on the left.fb as a witness made some rules and shouted out loud. the party party rules. She was talking to her pal wall to wall. Party party pal. haha... Next stop... lauching! wont miss it! Gold and Black.. denifinite fab! wuhooo! hahaha (dizzy but still able)... i can say now.. im drunk... hhihihih

Syd4 BLUES ;D

It wasnt that big to talk about but for my heart it the most to consider.

As bea made an effort to invite me for a party, a thought of refusal hasnt come across my mind at all. I was expectant to have a great night with the side4 people of SPH. I was a walk-in guest yet i made it at the right start to entertain them and made an effort to eventually sing for them. Having a gross introduction of singing in a bunch of short time encountered friends, it made me comfortable in a sudden. Its as if ive been with them for more than four years. Bea was with me for about six years and sure she knew me being an absolute shy-type buddy... but that cold night became a moment of BLUE lights and red lights of a group of people with the same intention while spending time together... to release the tensions, to extend love and to enjoy that night ..that next day sunrise. Lot of things has happened and im revealing them exclusively on my chest. I will forever long to experience such a wonderful party. It wasnt just about alcohol, it was all about being a group... being together...I know for sure that everyone of us felt hugged and comforted....

I was and i will miss it...

its your bday!

happeee bday _ _ _! miss the old times. missing you too.

FIFTH CONVERSATION

MAY

Its been a while since i visited my blog site and here i am sharing one of the emptiest stage of my life... tsk tsk tsk ^^

WORK
After a long time of sitting in front of the speakers during our orientation as nurse orientees, I am currently having my duty in the floor. Met lots of people, different personalities, each with unique way of approaching you. I keep on telling myself that in need to be myself and to treat people the best way i can. Dealing with the way i handle relationships with authority. It has been a problem with me to express my genuine concern for people and to show off how i appreciate them but circumstances, reactions, unnecessary things just poped-up. So here i am still struggling for the best socialization "thingie". I am being positive with the ahead, anyways, i am enjoying the company of almost everyone.


FAMILY
One thing i can proudly say is that, maybe i am bound to be more than just a second child. Thinking more mature than my older brother and that i handle things the nice way everytime something goes wrong. This aspect of my life isnt empty at all. More ways of showing affection and selfless efforts for my mom. I am in verge of getting away from the wave of forcing my brother to do what he wants to do. I just always tell him that "this time on, you need to decide for yourself". If youo wanted to change course and not take up nursing anymore, then find that passion in something you really wanted to do. Though i started clueless of taking up nursing, i am starting to love my career. Keeping people feel safe and comfortable.


SPIRITUAL
This is the almost empty stage of my MAY right now. Not covering my ass with my busy schedule, I am always tired from work that i always forgot to go to church. Sometimes, I even remember watching movies alone than Praying.

LOVE
is..... EMPTY! Status: Married (committed to work).
There are people who are worth talking to, Some are not worth mentioning.
This thingie can wait. (If they wanted to play around, I aint playing anymore!)

PEACE.