PRACTICALITY COMES IN DIFFERENT WAYS

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NARCOTICS DURING HOLIDAYS

--i feel like i'm loosing you, but ... i just realized i never had you from the start--

It was just my all in my mind. My own fantasy. The hatred and bitterness come crossing my nerves, making me numb the more. It wasnt right from the start that i kept everythin from you. The words you have said and the laughters you've whispered during pillow times. It was all good as i can just remember it. BUZZ! no answer. i did not took the chance to answer your call, it was not right to do so. The point of having you is not just to fill my fantasy of love, it was just dominating and irresistible to compare something vast to a feeling within a grasp. I am giving myself more than you think i do. i am
Stupified.

Vacío Por Medio Día

Llame o texto que estaba a la espera de casi la mitad de un día que no ha respondido a unas 12 horas. Cuento con cada hora, cada momento pasado sin él en mi bandeja de entrada o llame al registrado navegador.Yo sé! Esto no es bueno para más de 6 años mi corazón descansado. Qué puedo hacer mi cerebro me dice que colgar a mi adormecida todavía me empujó a cal.Mientras estaba escribiendo este sigo expectante un mensaje que podría hacer mi cara brillará aún ninguno. Su 9:05 pm voy a ir a la cama 11 mensajes de texto! Mi teléfono recibido aún ninguna de estas se. Royden y mantiene sobre el envío de mensajes tal vez perdidas sus compañeros de clase y SERVIEN, haciendo un esfuerzo para que me haga saber que está feliz por esta fiesta. Estoy bien bien y seré mejor barra de Gracias por los mensajes.Se analgesia que por lo menos no fue mi bandeja de entrada vacía, mientras que yo estaba esperando a alguien impulsar su teclado para llegar a mí. Estoy sangrando por la buena Rus Sí es muy efectiva yo estaba sangrando. TT

EMPTY FOR HALF A DAY

call or text, i was waiting for almost half of a day . he havent responded for about 12 hours. i count every hour, every single moment spent without him on my inbox or call registered browser. i know! this is not good, for over 6 years, my heart rested. what can i do? my brain's telling me to droop, to be numb, yet my inconsistent self pushed me to call and text. while i was writing this, i am still expectant that a message could make my face glow, still none. its 9:05 pm, i am about to go to bed, 11 text messages ! my phone received, yet none of those was his. and royden keeps on sending messages, maybe he missed his classmates and servien, making an effort to let me know he is happy for this holiday. i am good, good and i'll be better royd. thanks for the messages. it was an analgesia that at least my inbox wasnt that empty while i was waiting for somebody to at push his keypad to reach me. i am bleeding for good. yes rus, its very effective, i was bleedin'.

just for this time. hehehe

HEPHEP... HURRAY! HEPHEP HURRAY! -- the BSN 2D xmas reunion. haha (*.>*)

The bst moment of December came in unexpectedly. It was when everybody seemed having catch-22 on their heads (busy schedule!!!), that includes me!. Oh well, BUT by the EO power of Abe, the grappler, battling against time the plan was executed. Good to go! whaaaaooh! hahaha... this will be great!! ... "Do i need to bring anything else? a gift?.. NAahh... we are all apathetic bout it. We just need to see each other and talk bout nonsense-funny-exciting jokes that we've missed for couple of years owready.


A FRIENDLY REMINDER: PLEASE BE ON TIME, 7 PM ON THAT, Abe texted, weaving the plan to smoothly flow. A team of two, i recognized. Lizz helped him. Lucky as we are, nature went fine along.

WELCOME to ROCA ENCANTADA.. taraaan! haha where is the hell can i find that place? Is that just under the swimming pool or beaneth? NONE of those tips will direct you to the place. I told my brother to just wait for a while and stop... i'll just gotta look at the place incase my eyes can trace my target . daRn it!, where the heck is it? trouble finding..."Hey why not just call up the EO and ask!" --my brain shouted. Okay then, " Ei Abs ri nako, diin na xa ang roca, lapit poolside?Abe: Oo sulod lang deretso., "cge abs thnx", "okay ah, byebye."

i was hesitant cross the other green places thinking bout the private occasions that could be limited to only people who were invited. haha luckily i wasnt caught! naaah! no big deal of course.. that was just my paranoia...hehe ".. i headed the info desk... Miss can i ask something?, diin and roca? ... this way sir please" ..."thank you", i said. ahahaha.... i came in the brown door, infront was a big mirror reflecting the faces approaching the opened door. .. tsakto ayhan nasudlan ko? i wasnt still sure if the target was hit. taraann! again! abe, liza, nona, sheena(donghae ajejejeje hehe) sheridan and the guy on pink... haha just guess who! haha ramon..everybody looked tired haha .. naahh of courtse not.. they were busy talking bout stuffs. i cantg make an intro for myself so i zipped my mouth. haha... then i started talking in nowhere.

After couple of minutes, everyone arrived hahaha... loween on her white very short shorts and white heels which she took off later on. hahaha, Gen on her glittery dress, kiddin about riding on a bicycle kag "trisikad" bwahahaha... and her red nails looked astonishing. my eyeballs were glittered with her nail colors. twas really nice!, maki came in with her girly dress, looking kor-brit (neo!)vampire as usual. hehehe peace! jc with his ehhem.. honey. hehehehe... teasing me! over and over again! .. gen and abe find it funny as i made my facial expressions. hahaha they were confused too!... i was uncomfortable but then again, i am really excited to be with them again. as always... we ate dinner... funny-exciting-adventurous dinner coupled with fine table manners! d best guid ya and BSN 2D! nadula na ang pagkapau___ian!!! hahahah we had fun!! thats the point!


lou's having his monthly visitor so jes made a stroll around the hotel to look for the white wings. turning red soon! hehehe...

it was really nice being together again.

we made our brains and body tired till 2 am in the morning. were lucky jes made effort to bring his wheels.thnx!!! (the rest of the story will be in my memo forever... i will never intend to forget about those moments. I'LL TREASURE IT EVERY BIT.

Reflection:
itake every chance that comes my way.

to care is to give time, to chrish is to believe and trust.

care about the people that makes u laugh even just looking unto their eyes. (its a mutual feeling of gladness that bounds friendship and love)

A heartfelt thanks to the EO, ABE for organizing the party together with his power teammate LIZZ.. you guys deserve gifts? hehehhe thank you guid ya. my Christmas will not be complete without this gathering.

to BSN2D, the chain of respect and love is becoming stronger. stay updated????b (ka worng hehehe)(yawn! daw ga fog na tubang ka mata ko haw.. hehe). hehehe
mmmmmmmwaahhhhhh! I LOVE YOU ALL!

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BLUE XMAS

People are getting excited to celebrate the season. I am actually filled with material things on my mind like a little child, not until, series of things astounded me to look the picture on a zoom out mode. I passed by places, dirty places here in Iloilo, narrow streets and near sidegates, lots of them i've seen. Vendors trying to make a living, Security gaurd waving to say " pahigad anay may maagi", then i said, "dali lang nong!", Nurses from their night shift and other bystanders. i came across thru different faces. Most seemed happy and delighted. Guess i'm having the oozing joyfulness within me too. It really felt great seeing happy expressions.

I happened to cross the overused gate connecting atrium to San Pablo. It then made me blue. Hungry faces, seemed terrified by sunlight's ray madness. Skin so dark that even a mole could not be notice changing its color. Poor bodies, searching and begging exchange material for food and something to draw down their thirsts. I am terrified too. One begged me, i it made my thought shiver and my heart turned blue. I made him smile and said thank you. Now, at least i have made his christmas better. and not like the song "bluer than blue".